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Holiday Memory: The Green Tartan Night Gown

Written by Laurie on November 29, 2010

Thanks to Laurie, a regular contributor to Five More Minutes With Web site (and one of the first people ever to submit) for being the first person to send in a happy holiday memory for our Holiday Memory Contest!

Her first story for us, A Whiff of Perfume, documented the ineffable memories she had when she smelled her mother’s perfume.

The House on Sylvan Lane chronicled her happy childhood in a very special home.

In The Green Tartan Night Gown, she again weaves a compelling portrait of family life as she was growing up. As with her two previous stories, I can’t read it without shedding a bucket full of tears.

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Everyone has his own way of celebrating Christmas. In our house, these “family traditions” had to be adhered to year after year. My mother was the producer of Christmas and the keeper of the rules.

On Christmas morning, we took coffee or hot chocholate and a special Christmas Danish to the fireplace to open our stocking gifts. These “treasures” were anything from candy and cosmetics to kitchen gadgets and school supplies that we wrapped in red or green tissue paper. We took turns unwrapping them one at a time.

In an attempt to make the day last as long as it possible, we took a break to get the turkey in the oven, dress up for the day, and slowly gather around the Christmas tree for the gift exchange. Dad was Santa and passed around the colorfully wrapped presents. We watched as each opened a gift and, made appropriate oohs and aahs.

Selecting, wrapping and giving gifts was very important to my mom. Christmas wasn’t Christmas unless you had packages under the tree with your name on the gift tag.

As time went by, the mantle passed to me. I became the producer of Christmas in my home, but my mom still was the enforcer of the traditions. On this particular Christmas, we all had to bend the rules to accommodate my mom’s treatment for ovarian cancer.

I now lived in Florida where my parents spent their winters, so we were able to arrange for mom to come as usual and continue with chemo. She was so weak when she got off the plane. I got them settled in their condo about five minutes from my home, bought a miniature live Christmas tree, and tried to make it as festive as possible.

To make it easier on mom, I set up the stockings turning their kitchen bar into “the fireplace mantel”. On Christmas morning, I drove to their condo for coffee and Danish and the familiar stocking gift ritual which my dad and I kept alive.

Later in the day, a very frail mom wearing her crooked wig came to my house to finish the Christmas traditions around my tree. The gifts were there, but this year’s pile wasn’t as big and I expected nothing from my mom except the gift of her being with us that day.

This time, I was Santa. She directed me to a package with my name on it in her handwriting beautifully wrapped. I opened the box and pulled out a full length flannel night gown in a green tartan pattern.

What made the gift so special is that my mom made my dad drive her to the mall so that she personally could pick out the gift — something to keep me warm since she knows I always get cold. The tears came down my cheeks as I tried to hide them behind the warm comfy night gown which reminded me of my mother’s love and the importance of celebrating Christmas her way.

That was our last Christmas, but the gown comforted me and brought back warm memories of a lifetime of Christmases with my mom. They are never the same without her.

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The Stillness After the Snow

Written by on November 25, 2010

Snow as witnessed from our balcony in downtown Seattle; the Seattle Art Museum and the famous statue, “Hammering Man” on the left-hand side; the historic section of town–Pioneer Square–visible in the distance looking down First Avenue

Snow gripped the Northwest last Sunday and Monday, just in time to set the scene for Thanksgiving week. It was a beautiful display of Mother Nature’s craft as tiny snowflakes danced around downtown, over Elliott Bay, and to points far beyond.

Since I was a child, I have always loved the stillness that snowfalls bring to the earth, the way that modern life seems to stand still–even if only for a day or two–as people (even grown-ups) enjoy a snow day with their children.

Cheers to Thanksgiving and this special time of the year.

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My Memorial for My Mother

Written by Braiden on November 22, 2010

The following is the the two-page document I shared with the people who attended my mother’s small memorial service in Austin, Texas, on August 17, 2005.

Welcome to this memorial for Julie Rex. Any of you who knew her knew she was from the South, and so had many “interesting” view on life and death, particularly on funerals.

Which puts her family in a funny place after her death last Saturday. Mom didn’t want any “doings,” and by that she meant a lot of pageantry, pomp, and circumstance. But those who knew her knew how much she loved a good party, so instead of calling this gathering tonight to celebrate her life “doings,” let’s call it a party. So. . .welcome to the party.

As my husband Spencer and I were flying here from Seattle on American Airlines’ red-eye flight on Saturday evening and Sunday morning, I had many quiet hours to think about Mom. As is my pattern as a professional writer, I wrote down my thoughts quickly, recklessly, in their raw form once we landed in Dallas and had a two-hour layover.

I cleaned my notes up a bit, edited and organized them, and tonight I’d like to share my thoughts with you.

Mom’s motto in life was to “Live each day gloriously.” I’ll say it again: Live each day gloriously. Mom was a relentlessly upbeat person who never saw the glass as half empty, but always as half full. She took delight in simple things—a perfect pink rosebud in a crystal vase, a homegrown peach sliced into cold milk, the baby sparrows that landed on her beloved bird feeder.

Within the last two years, the physical limitations of her body—the defibrillator, almost total blindness, severe arthritis in both hands and one knee—would have killed most mortals. But, up until her last week to 10 days, Mom kept up a brave front, until I think she just could not see the glass as half full any more.

I grew up in suburban Philadelphia in the 1960s, where Mom was the prototypical good mother. Some of the things I vividly remember from childhood:

–Going to the farmers’ market on Tuesdays and Saturdays, where the Amish people pulled up in their horse-drawn buggies to sell us everything from fresh-killed chickens to shoofly pie. As the author of six books on the Pike Place Market, this exposure to farmers’ markets from an early age has had a profound effect on my adult life.

–I remember her bringing cupcakes for the entire class when it was my birthday—white cake and pink icing, of course.

Rock-hunting for rubies and sapphires in North Carolina one summer vacation. She had a beautiful ruby-and-gold ring specially designed for me from our discoveries and I still wear it to this day.

–Her orchids painstakingly hand-pollinated and nurtured under black lights.

–Science projects that took over the laundry room.

–Her outdoor garden with specimen rose bushes, dahlias, peonies, and her beloved (being a true Southern belle) magnolia trees. People in Pennsylvania never could understand how those fragile trees could survive the harsh winters.

–Car trips through Mom’s beloved South with stops at places such as Mammy’s Barbecue in South Carolina (those were less politically correct times) and The Deck in Brunswick, Georgia, with the best fried shrimp and hush puppies.

–Finally, the numerous cats we adopted, beginning with Diamond, the tortoise-shell Persian, when I was six and Brad was three.

To wrap up, I’d just like to say that Spencer and I went to see Mom at the funeral home on Monday. I was worried that she might be ravaged by all the pain she may have experienced during her last moments, but we were relieved to find instead her face beautiful, unmarked, without a wrinkle. In death, as in life, her bearing was regal, her hair neatly combed. She looked like a movie star.

Most importantly, she looked totally, completely, at peace.

So instead of mourning her death with pretentious “doings,” it seems much more appropriate to celebrate her life with a gathering of her favorite friends and family. Because anyone whose credo was to “Live each day gloriously,” wouldn’t have it any other way.

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Beautiful Bouquets and My Mother’s Vase

Written by Braiden on November 18, 2010

Everybody loves receiving a bouquet of fresh-cut flowers (yes, even some men I know!). There’s  just something so uplifting and joyous in receiving such a gift of nature.

White dahlias and star-gazer lilies in my mother’s vase

And as I’ve said before, I love to arrange flowers, then my husband works his magic in his photography studio. He shoots the blossoms on a raised platform and  in front of a black-velvet backdrop.

This arrangement from earlier this autumn is especially significant because the vase was part of my mother’s family, passed down to her, then to me. The vase had a partner and the pair sat on either side of the mantelpiece in my mother’s childhood home. Later the duo graced the bookshelves in the den in our family home.

I was sorry when one of the vases arrived broken at our home in Seattle. Poorly packed, it didn’t survive the rough journey from suburban Philadelphia where I grew up.

But I’ve proudly displayed the survivor since 1996. It means so much to combine my love of flower arranging with an object that my mother, and I both love.


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Little Deaths

Written by Braiden on November 15, 2010

On and off throughout my life–as far back as eighth grade–I’ve tried my hand at writing fiction, everything from several romance novels to half a vampire/Gothic/time travel novel to screenplays.

Other than a few short stories in the college literary magazine, none of my fiction writing has ever been published. So it is with a bit of trepidation that I offer up one of my short stories for what I hope will be your reading pleasure today.

“Little Deaths” explores the everyday things in our lives that change or die as we get older, as well as relationships that sour over the years.

I believe it is very much in the Five More Minutes With zeitgeist. And as we move forward with the Web site, I want to offer every sort of form to readers for their edification and enjoyment–memoirs, short stories, poems, video, audio, and whatever forms of communication may one day be a part of our everyday lives.

I hope you enjoy reading “Little Deaths” as much as I am happy and elated to share it.

*****

Helen clicked off the television the moment the advertisement came on, the one that showed a middle-aged woman with flowing locks running through a field of flowers while the announcer intoned, “Rogaine for Women, for the times when the hair on the bathroom floor isn’t your husband’s.”

Male-pattern baldness ran in Helen’s family, with her father, grandfather, and great-grandfather’s heads all eventually growing as smooth and shiny as billiard balls. Now it was her brother Henry’s turn; even with twice-daily Rogaine use, his hairline was receding as fast as a redwood forest during a firestorm.

As she padded to the bathroom, Helen realized that lately she had begun to dread taking showers. She was mad about the Pine Sap Shampoo for Thinning Hair she’d bought at the health-food store for an extravagant $24.95, and madder still because even as the foul-smelling suds permeated to her scalp, strands of hair stuck to her fingers. As she patted the shampoo over her head, trying to keep as many hairs in her head as possible, her gentle touch wasn’t working.

Tendrils of hair curled over her body and stuck to her extremities and stomach, clinging obstinately even as she tried to brush them away. Each fallen hair seemed like a personal defeat, a little death, mocking her. Why had the hairs grown so spindly and thin lately? Why wouldn’t they stay in her head any more?

Helen had heard of men and women who lost the hair over their entire bodies, including eyelashes and eyebrows. Victims of alopecia areata were often featured on “Oprah” or “Jerry Springer” along with severe burn victims or albinos–people who looked different from the norm. To a person, these hairless humans said they’d rather have lost a kidney than their hair.

Helen’s father attributed his hair loss to the tight helmet he wore during combat in World War II. His painstaking comb-overs were the stuff of family legend, something Dr. Schneider pursued as relentlessly as the patients he probed in his medical office in the suburbs of Philadelphia.

Helen could still remember the way her father stood in front of the bathroom mirror and moistened a small straight comb with hot water. Then, as carefully if he were performing inner-ear surgery, he coaxed a few fluffy brown wisps from one side of his head to the other, barely covering his bald pate.

Once, when her father came to visit Helen after she married, the cat jumped onto the sofa while he napped. Wolfgang licked his bald spot with relish, attracted by the oils on the bare scalp, and Dr. Schneider awoke with a start. Helen laughed, but Dr. Schneider didn’t find it funny. He never liked animals much anyway. Now Helen locked the cat away whenever her father came to visit.

As Helen stood naked in front of the bathroom mirror, examining the bald patches that glowed eerily around her temples, her once perky breasts and stomach that now sagged forlornly, she remembered how her father sometimes used to take her and Henry to the hospital when he had an emergency call.

When the two tired of coloring or playing with the telephones in his office, they went downstairs to the hospital museum, a secure place where they were allowed to roam freely.

The see-through skeleton was Helen’s favorite exhibit, a six-foot-tall, anatomically correct representation of the human body. The clear plastic body made a complete revolution every two minutes, displaying all the organs and arteries and veins as it twirled.

When you pressed the proper button, various bodily systems (the lymph glands, the blood vessels) lit up, bright as a pinball machine.

Henry always pressed the button for the female reproductive system, which illuminated the skeleton’s breasts, ovaries, and vagina.

Helen had never forgotten her brother’s giddy laugh, his childhood reverie as he pressed the button repeatedly and pointed at the skeleton’s hairless body.

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You Can Choose to Be Happy!

Written by Braiden on November 11, 2010

I remember that when I was growing up, my mother found joy in simple things, such as growing her own orchids under black lights or arranging the roses and dahlias from her garden

My mother’s mantra was, “Live each day gloriously.”

And despite her deep, dark secret–life as a hidden hoarder–I choose to believe (and maybe I need to believe) that she did manage to find some sort of beauty in each and every day.

I remember that when I was growing up, she found joy in simple things, such as growing her own orchids under black lights or arranging the roses and dahlias from her garden.

At a recent culinary conference in Palm Springs (part of my “other life” as a food and wine writer), keynote speaker Pamela Jett, CSP (Certified Speaking Professional) seemed to agree with Mom’s philosophy.

The very first suggestion she shared among her time-tested tips for better communication was the following:

“Get up every morning and choose to be happy. Don’t stay neutral and don’t opt for misery.”

Inner victory precedes outer victory, the acclaimed speaking professional reasoned. Accept responsibility for your attitude and make it positive! Choosing to be happy is proactive and a lot healthier than languishing around in the doldrums.

Have you chosen to be happy today?

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Just One More Cast and We Will Go

Written by Jill Eisnaugle on November 10, 2010

“Just one more cast and we will go.” Dad said, as nightfall neared. He knew his four-year-old daughter was tired. We had both witnessed a long day at the lake with little to no excitement. The crisp early spring winds that blew across the lakeshore’s grassy knoll combined with the evening’s vibrant sunset of yellow and purple hues and each had proven to be more exciting than the purpose of the trip — enticing a northern pike to briefly visit us on the bank. It was late March 1985 in Southern Ohio and the fish were rather slow to awaken from their annual state of sluggishness. Dad and I understood their reasoning, since the harsh winter had also left us slower than usual in rekindling our love for the outdoors.

Retired because of medical reasons, my father’s “job” became teaching his only child the finer characteristics of life, including everything that nature had to offer. Dad was a connoisseur of outdoor living; from birth, I was raised around the outdoors. I built sandcastles; I waded across rivers to remote islands, where my imagination led me to dream of buried treasures; I climbed rocks and built campfires; but most importantly – to Dad, at least – I fished. From the time I could talk, I easily chose a good or bad day’s fishing over a day of playing with dolls or hosting tea parties, even if my youthfulness and short attention span quickly led me to exhaustion.

As half past seven o’clock approached, it was looking more and more like the entire fishing day would be for nothing. That day, we had been fishing the lake for the better part of eight hours. With our homemade ham and cheese sandwiches devoured, and the last of our soft drinks ingested, Dad and I were both about to concede that our outing had accomplished nothing more than father-daughter quality time. Then, the little red and white bobber attached to my line went underwater.

“Jerk!” Dad exclaimed, noting the missing bobber and bending fishing pole, a good fifteen seconds before my weary eyes could focus. As asked, I gave a hefty heave on the pole – as hefty a heave as a four year old with immature muscles could. Then, the fight began. The fish was determined to stay underwater and I was determined to bring him ashore. Many times, during my back-and-forth, give-and-take battle with my captured prey, Dad offered to take the fishing pole from me.

Throughout the fight, I kept saying, “I can land it; I can land it.” I was determined, but in no time, the pain and fatigue running through my tiny muscles got the better of me. I handed the pole to my Dad, who brought my prize – a beautiful northern pike – to shore, nearly a half an hour after I had hooked it.

With my muscles somewhat rejuvenated, I held the pole while Dad took the hook from the fish’s mouth. I, then, watched as he released my catch to its home in the lake. It was the perfect ending to a perfect day. Dad and I spent quality time together and I learned a valuable lesson that good things come to those who wait!

For the next week, my twenty-two inch northern pike was the main topic of discussion among our friends and neighbors in Jackson, Ohio. In each of the stories, I soon declared the fish was twenty-two pounds, instead of its much smaller size. Of course, I blamed my confusion on being young and not knowing the difference between inches and pounds; Dad always said I was a true fisherman, prone to lying about her catch! You can be the judge!

Over the years, Dad and I continued our fishing expeditions. Together, we fished our favorite freshwater lakes and rivers in Ohio. Later, we found much happiness in fishing the salt waters of the Gulf of Mexico from the Galveston Fishing Pier on Texas’s upper coastline. Through it all, Dad proudly stood by my side. He was there– in Ohio –when I caught twenty large carp in one day and here—in Texas–when I caught a tournament-sized gafftop catfish. Yet, over the years and our fishing expeditions, Dad’s health was also declining.

One day in May 2003, Dad and I awakened early – as we usually did on fishing days – and headed from our Texas City home to the fishing pier in Galveston. Little did I know then that something would be different about that day. We arrived to the coast at 6:45, that morning, to begin our fishing day at seven. The Gulf was at low tide and the water was a beautiful shade of green. The conditions were perfect for anglers using live bait, but not for the style of fishing that Dad and I always enjoyed. Nearly four hours after arriving on the pier, the late springtime heat began to wreak havoc on our ability to breathe. Dad was tiring and I could sense it.

“Just one more cast and then, we’ll go?” I asked, as I glanced in Dad’s direction. He nodded in agreement. With our decision noted and a piece of freshly cut white squid dangling from the hook, the line was cast to sea for the final time. Nearly fifteen minutes passed and it looked like the morning of fishing would be just as one memorable March day had been, nearly twenty years earlier – a good day for father and daughter bonding, but not for much else. Then, I glanced toward the railing of the pier and noticed the fishing pole was bent double.

“Jerk!” I yelled to Dad. He grabbed the pole, gave a hefty heave, and the fight began. Dad was locked in a battle of wills with a stubborn blacktip shark; however, just as I had been, 18 years earlier, Dad was tiring of the fight. “Do you want me to land it?” I asked. Without hesitation, Dad handed me the pole and took a seat on one of the pier’s faded red wooden benches. After a clash, I landed Dad’s four foot shark, nearly a half an hour after he had hooked it. Then, Dad–somewhat rejuvenated–helped me release the shark to sea again. Soon afterward, he suggested that we call it a day. I did not know it, at the time, but that was our last fishing outing. After that day, Dad’s health progressively worsened and soon, he could not physically go fishing any longer.

My father passed away on June 22, 2008, but the lessons he taught me about life and the memories I have of our fishing trips will never fade from my mind or my heart. I am grateful for the days we shared and for the lessons he taught me. He not only taught me about life, but about love, family and the beautiful excitement surrounding us in nature, each and every day. Thanks, Dad!

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The Reunion I Can’t Attend

Written by Braiden on November 8, 2010

An invitation to my high-school graduation

I’ve been thinking a lot about reunions lately, my memories sparked by my upcoming 36th high-school reunion, which takes place just outside of Philadelphia on Friday evening.

The reunion was originally scheduled to coincide with our 35th graduation anniversary last year. But so many people were unavailable on the chosen date, the reunion organizers (several dedicated members of my graduating class of 270 who still live in the Philadelphia area) decided to forget 35 and reschedule our 36th for 2010.

Many of these people I had gone to elementary, junior-, and senior-high school with. Our paths had crossed at school, on the playing field, and at extra-curricular events for 12 years.

A handful I’ve even kept in contact with over all these years.

Braiden on her high-school graduation day from Harriton High School in suburban Philadelphia

Sadly, I won’t be among the group of approximately 60 happy, 50-something Harriton High School graduates reminiscing about favorite teachers and reveling in long-ago fond memories Friday evening.

Airfare from Seattle is simply too costly; time out of the office is always difficult; travels from the West Coast to the East Coast during this time of the year can be dicey, depending on the weather.

And with the advent of Facebook and other social-networking outlets, I figure if I really want to contact an old elementary-school or junior- or senior-high-school acquaintance, I can locate them on Facebook, view their family photos, poke or “friend” them if they look interesting, and voilà–we can be in contact again.

But as I think of the 70 graduates who’ll be reminiscing and reveling on Friday, I can’t help but also think about those graduating seniors who are no longer with us.

I remember the summer after we graduated in 1974, one very popular boy from our class wrapped his car around a telephone pole and died instantly. Obviously, he never made it to college.

My very own high-school boyfriend, who went on to college with me, was killed in a road-rage accident while in his second year in law school. And in Salt Lake City, Utah, of all places.

During their reunion planning, the organizers sent out several lists of our fellow high-school grads who were “missing,” their contact info lost over the years as their families died off and/or they moved out of the region.

Do you have high-school friends–perhaps even a lost love–who have passed on, or whom you haven’t been able to find on Facebook or Twitter?

If so, what would you say if you had five more minutes to spend with them?

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Under the Light of the Inspiring Harvest Moon

Written by Braiden on November 4, 2010

I just adore this time of the year with its nippy air, harvest moons, Halloween (which we fondly refer to as “Hollerween”) just passed, and the holidays waiting in the wings.

On a recent trip to Palm Springs for a culinary conference as part of my other life (as a food and wine writer), we witnessed many memorable moons rising above the desert floor.

They were so dramatic, I wanted to share two of the best of them with you today.

Happy harvest-moon season to all of us. Get out there and enjoy an inspiring moonscape tonight!

Desert Moon in Palm Springs

Dark Moon over the Palm Springs desert


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A Beautiful Poem: Autumnal Birth

Written by Braiden on November 1, 2010

This beautiful poem, an ode to autumn, comes from Don Corson, winemaker and co-owner of Camaraderie Cellars in Port Angeles, Washington. In my “other life” (as an award-winning food and wine writer) I wrote an article on Olympic Coast cuisine for The Seattle Times Pacific Northwest magazine’s weekly Taste column.

Entitled, In the Loop, the article profiled Don and other winemakers and restaurateurs from the northern part of Washington state.

A true thinker and dreamer, Don and his wife, Vicki, live where they work–in a statue-garden-like paradise that serves as tasting room, winery, and their home.

Here is Don’s “Autumnal Birth,” which he describes as “a Hildegardian Muse.”

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Spring’s planting into warm moist earth,

The fertile seed trenched in womb-like soil

There to grow and sprout in the power of

Greening Veriditas.

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Longer Summer days

Envelop prenatal fruit of vine, tree, and flower

And nurtures the making of the Mystery of ripeness and true birth.

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Greening grows into Autumnal golding and purpling, reddening and umbering,

Saplings harden,

Leanness fattens,

Thinness plumps,

Sourness sweetens.

***

Birth emerges not as seed sprouted but as fruit picked!

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My heart, dear Lord,

A ripe fruit in making,

Take it in your time for your plucking by the

Nurture and greening power of your ripened resurrection.

Amen

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